God Entered Your Darkness

NOTE: This month, we’re tackling the issue of identity. I’m honored to share guests posts throughout the month (and maybe into December). These ladies have inspired me, and I’m excited for you to hear from them as well.

To launch this series, I’m writing today’s post. In my journey of identity, I’ve received revelation on this subject from Psalms 139. Because God’s Word is a living being (Jesus is the manifestation of the word), you can’t exhaust the life in the Word. Even though I’ve read and listened to this chapter multiple times, God reveals deeper layers of truth about who he is in these verses.

Light, darkness, identity

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“Wherever I go, your hand will guide me;

Your strength will empower me.

It’s impossible to disappear from you.” (Psalms 139: 10 TPT)

During a difficult season, I felt so insecure, seeing myself through my weaknesses and feeling like I’ve failed God. Whenever vile traits popped up such as anger, bitterness, and envy, I’d feel condemned as a sinner. After a while, I didn’t think I could measure up, so I felt cold toward God. Even though I wouldn’t admit it, I considered him a benevolent taskmaster who expected me to work hard to maintain our relationship and especially to be like Jesus.

Being politically correct, I told him, “I don’t feel you anymore.” But what I really meant was, “I’ve walked so far away from you that I can’t restore this gulf.” I didn’t want to admit the coldness of my heart, because I felt that he couldn’t work with me anymore. He’d just move on with those who wanted a deeper relationship.

Without missing a beat, he whispered to my heart, “I’m always with you.”

Peace blanketed me. And I endured through that season.

Even though I wasn’t clear enough to understand the deeper truths in his statement, the Holy Spirit has led me to those deeper levels through the years.

What I missed the first time, but understand clearer now is: He is in me. Not just with me, like a passenger in the front seat going along for the ride. We’re one in a marriage.

Thus, as David eloquently stated in the Psalm, it’s impossible to disappear from him. 

But God goes beyond dwelling with us, he’s actively ushering his light in our lives.

“Or to ask the darkness to hide me, for your presence is everywhere

Bringing light into my night!

There is no such thing as “darkness” with you.

The night, to you, is as bright as the day;

There is no difference between the two.” (Psalms 139: 10-12 TPT)

God doesn’t know darkness (evil) simply because evil is an absence of Him.

When evil penetrated the world, God, through Jesus, entered into our darkness and ushered in his light.

“Life came into being because of him, for his life is light for all humanity.

And this Living Expression is the Light that bursts through gloom–the Light that darkness couldn’t diminish!

For the Light of Truth was about to come into the world and shine upon everyone.” (John 1:4-5,9 TPT)

Back to my season of struggle, even though God had delivered me from darkness to light, I needed illumination in my thinking. I was clouded with religious darkness convincing me that my weaknesses were part of me. So, I didn’t think I reflected Jesus when these traits manifested in my life.

But I was grossly mistaken. Those “traits” aren’t who I am, but squatters that God will evict. They don’t have rightful access to dwell in our home. And as I surrender to the transformation process, they’ll leave. Because darkness cannot dwell in the light, and that’s who we are — children of the light.

Do you know you’re not your struggles? Please share any feedback or experiences on this topic in Comments below. Thank you.

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